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Book B’go (Book Bingo for Underachievers)

Posted by sasha on 2 Feb 2015 in just plain rambling |

I tried writing a preamble for this post… and after about 500 words of dross (and no end in sight), I ditched it in favour of the following:

  • I have thus far avoided book bingo-type challenges for various complicated reasons, but the main one can be more or less deduced from the title of this post.
  • I read an intriguing review of a graphic novel and wanted (needed?) an excuse to read one.
  • I also wanted (needed?) an excuse to read some stuff that I might not otherwise read.
  • Upon deciding all of this I spent an absurd amount of time trying to find a name for a bingo card that only had three columns.

There. Done. So this is what the card looks like:

 

B’ G O
Something from my Goodreads to-read list Something from Bibliomama’s All-Star round-ups A poetry book or collection
Something I didn’t read in high school A graphic novel or short-story. Something A.J. Fikry recommends
Something A.J. Fikry would never read. A zombie book. A classic.

 

And this is what it means:

Something from my Goodreads to-read list. I know, this kinda seems like cheating if the goal is to read something I might not otherwise read, but the fact is that for any book that hits Goodreads without magically landing in my hands in less then 36 hours, the chances of it getting read are right up there with the chances of winning the lottery. So I’m holding a lottery: pick something from the list using a random number generator, and then actually read it… regardless of whether I can remember how it got on the list in the first place.

Something from Bibliomama’s All-Star round-ups. By this I mean something from one of Allison‘s 3-, 4-, and 5-star round-up posts. And this is cheating, because I totally would have done this anyway.

A poetry book or collection. I have a weird relationship with poetry. I’ve written poetry (or, well, rambly prose uninfluenced by grammar, does that count?), but any time I try to read it I feel like I’m missing something. This frustrates me so much that I once wrote a poem about it… I may not get poetry, but I’m all over irony.

Something I didn’t read in high school – This could be something everyone else had to read in high school, but I somehow managed to avoid missed out on (Of Mice and Men and The Catcher In The Rye come to mind). It can also be something I technically had to read, but didn’t (The Great Gatsby … which I didn’t read because I didn’t get it, or like it, and for someone who adored reading, the thought of reading something you weren’t enjoying just did. not. grok.)

Graphic Novel - I suppose this doesn’t require much explanation, except perhaps to say that I don’t mean 50 Shades of Grey. I’m going to do this because, if I’m going cling to the opinion that comic-books aren’t literature, then I should at least make it an informed opinion. And who knows, I may even like them. (Which would be nice, because I don’t actually like being a snob.)

A. J. Fikry recommends – I recently read, and have very nearly finished re-reading, The Storied Life of A. J. Fikry. Sprinkled throughout the book are reviews of short stories (and possibly some novels) – and I want to add nearly all of them to my to-read list. The fact that in the time it takes to read one book twenty new ones get added to GoodReads may have something to do with my burgeoning to-read list.

Something A.J. Fikry would never read.  Honestly, I could have created an entire bingo card based on this book. This square comes from A.J.’s response to a question about what he likes to read. His answer:

I do not like postmodernism, postapocalyptic settings, postmortem narrators, or magic realism. I rarely respond to supposedly clever formal devices, multiple fonts, pictures where they shouldn’t be—basically, gimmicks of any kind. I find literary fiction about the Holocaust or any other major world tragedy to be distasteful—nonfiction only, please. I do not like genre mash-ups à la the literary detective novel or the literary fantasy. Literary should be literary, and genre should be genre, and crossbreeding rarely results in anything satisfying. I do not like children’s books, especially ones with orphans, and I prefer not to clutter my shelves with young adult. I do not like anything over four hundred pages or under one hundred fifty pages. I am repulsed by ghostwritten novels by reality television stars, celebrity picture books, sports memoirs, movie tie-in editions, novelty items, and—I imagine this goes without saying—vampires.

Suffering, as I do, from some of the same literary snobbery as good old A.J,, I figured both of us should read something from this list. Actually, I’m surprised zombies aren’t on there, and since they aren’t, I also have a square for…

A zombie book. I’ve never intentionally read a zombie book. I did start one accidentally once, and was completely drawn in. But around the same time I discovered it was about zombies, I hit a scene that was just so disturbing that I had to put it down.

A classic. By this I mean something that it seems like everyone has read, or should have read, and is constantly referred-to by other books and book reviews and just writers in general and so it makes me feel dumb because I’ve never read whatever-it-is. Some titles that come to mind are Mansfield Park, Anna Karenina, and Lolita… but in this (and any other category) I am totally open to suggestions.

What are you reading? Any  suggestions?

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An Open Letter

Posted by sasha on 17 Nov 2014 in just plain rambling |

I wrote yesterday about the visit to my Grandpa. Two things really distressed me about that visit:

  1. I just felt so helpless. Unable to understand what he tried to say, unable to help, unable to do anything to make it better.
  2. Grandpa looked like an Old Man. I’ve seen that Old Man before; in the mall, on the bus, in a wheelchair abandoned in a hospital hallway. It really bothered me that anyone who walked in the room would see nothing but an Old Man.

In the process of writing yesterday’s post, I found something that helped on both counts: I wrote a letter. It now hangs on the wall of Grandpa’s hospital room. Dad agreed to put it there after I took out the word “assholes”. He suggested “jerks”, but I didn’t want to use “jerk” and “punk” so close together.

To the Staff at G— R— Hospital,

This is my Grandpa. Thank you so much for taking care of him. Here are a few things I thought you might like to know:

His hospital bracelet says William but he actually goes by Bill. His bracelet also says he was born in 1925. Even I didn’t know that.

His picture hangs in the Faculty of Engineering at the University of Manitoba, class of 1949. I think he may be the only Electrical Engineer on the face of the planet who has never owned a computer.

In the 1980s, he quit smoking. Cold turkey. He kept an open pack of Du Mauriers in his bedside table for over 20 years – to remind himself that he was not a smoker – until some ignorant cretins broke in one Civic Holiday weekend and stole them. My god I hope those punks got sick smoking those things.

Grandpa retired from Canada Packers at 61, but instead of slowing down, he volunteered for the Canadian Cancer Society, driving patients to their treatments. He enrolled in German and Creative Writing classes, and took up windsurfing.

A few weeks ago Grandpa had to do some sort of competency test. He struggled with most of it. When asked to write something, he wrote, “this test makes me look foolish.” Touché, Grandpa. Touché.

My Grandpa is a smart, educated professional. Like you. Like me. I can’t begin to imagine what it is like for him not being able to express himself, much less take care of himself. And so thank you again: Thank you for your care, for your patience, and for the time you take with him in what I know is a busy, busy day.

Sincerely,

Sasha Rambles

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Finding The Words

Posted by sasha on 16 Nov 2014 in just plain rambling |

This summer, my grandparents moved out of the home my father grew up in, and into a retirement home. It was time. Grandpa has been suffering from failing eyesight and Parkinson’s disease, and living at home was becoming too much. There were too many falls. There was a night spent on the bathroom floor before Grandma was able to call for help. So they left North York and found a place in a retirement home in Kitchener, near Dad.

Things just kinda got worse from there. There were more falls. First Grandpa and then Grandma landed in hospital at the beginning of September, and they haven’t actually seen each other since. Grandpa’s hip was broken and required a partial replacement. Grandma’s vertigo suddenly worsened. And all this happened just before my trip to France, so I couldn’t go and see them.

After that, I got sick. The kids got sick. ζach got sick. We couldn’t risk visiting and making anyone else sick. Finally, a few weeks ago, nobody was sick. On Tuesday morning I rented a car and headed for Kitchener.

I saw Grandpa on Tuesday night. As Dad walked past the nurse’s station, Anne, my step mom, took me gently by the arm and asked me if I was prepared for what I was about to see. All the way into the hospital I had been chattering away about nothing important and said that no, I was not prepared, and that I figured if I didn’t stop talking that would save me from having to start thinking.

Grandpa was lying on the bed in a hospital gown. Never before have I truly understood what it means for a body to be wasting away. His arms were shriveled and sinewy, there was almost nothing under the blanket indicating there was a person under there.

So I didn’t focus on that. Instead I focused on his face. The part of Grandpa that was still Grandpa.

That was when the first wave of real grief hit me: I realized how much my father looks like his father. The jawline, the trim salt and pepper beard. The curve of his mouth, the shape of his nose. I could have been looking at my own father. I walked to the window and stared into the dark, and waited for that wave to finally set me down again; feet in the shifting sand, surrounded in turbulence, but at least stable enough to come back to the bed.

To call what followed a “conversation” would be a bit of a stretch. Sometimes we could almost understand bits of what Grandpa was saying. Was that last word “outsourcing”? What on earth could that mean? Was he telling us about being in the Air Force, or telling us that his feet are cold? Is it the Parkinson’s mangling his words, or dementia mangling his thoughts? He was hot, so we pulled back the sheet. No, actually cold – pull it back up. Over and over.

At times he would just stop, eyes closed, mouth open, just trying to breathe. It was scary.

After several, clearly futile, attempts to make him comfortable, he said something we all understood: “I think I need to cry now.”  My Grandpa doesn’t cry. And he didn’t cry. His body wouldn’t even let him cry.

So the rest of us did instead.

He is in pain. The last time he fell, the pin from the prosthetic was driven into the top of his femur, cracking it. But his heart is operating at thirty percent capacity, and they’re afraid that surgery will kill him.

What does that mean, thirty percent? Is the other seventy percent gone? Can any of it come back?

It sounds Awful. But Awful is not the right word. Distressing might be closer. Awful feels disrespectful of the human being I know him to be. Monsters are awful. Awful feels like I’m robbing him of what dignity he still has left. I’m still looking for the right word.

As we were about to leave, he managed to say one more thing. The clearly formed words, after all that effort to understand and to be understood, felt like a gift.

“Sasha, I want to tell you something.”
I leaned in close and took his hand.
“What is it Grandpa?”
“… I can’t remember”

 

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EuroCaching 2014 – By The Numbers

Posted by sasha on 15 Oct 2014 in georambles |

Caches found: fifty
Most countries cached in a single day: three
Time on the ground in Zurich before finding a cache: twenty-seven minutes

Nights out with local cachers in Luxemboug: one
Languages spoken at the dinner table: four
Friendships forged over the course of the evening: many

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I {heart} Luxembourg

Depth of the Pétrusse valley, Luxembourg City: 379 metres
Number of times I hiked down into it: four
Number of times I hiked back out again: four
Number of drug deals interrupted in the process: two
Point at which I discovered there was an elevator: wait – what?
Regrets: zero

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Pétrusse valley. Note that the bottom of the picture is the tops of the trees.

Longest hike for a single cache: twelve kilometres
Cache owner: Luxembourg City Tourist Office
Number of clues suffering from translation issues: several
Number of times I had to double back to the tourist office: two
Number of times I had already hiked the Pétrusse valley that day: two
Number of times I was nearly reduced to tears: two
Regrets: still zero

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Clue: count the pillars on the swing. Answer: 5. #noidea

Inter-city train trips: five
Railway announcements I understood that were made in French: almost all of them
Railway announcements I understood that were made in English: almost none of them

ISIS threats against the NYC and Paris subway systems: one
Security “incidents” while riding the Paris metro: one
Distance walked home after that: far

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Blisters acquired during the course of the entire trip: one
Blisters acquired while wearing technical socks: zero
Cost of technical sock collection: priceless

Sightings of Disney’s Frozen characters in the vicinity of Notre Dame Cathedral: one
Screenings of Disney’s Frozen in Ottawa during my absence: three
Live dramatic re-interpretations of same: unenumerated

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Number of times stuck in a Paris Metro turnstile: one
Number of sympathetic passers-by required for extraction: three
Number of times I semi-unintentionally ripped off the Paris transit authority: one

Number of times I lost my camera bag: one
Time elapsed before I realized it was on my back: six seconds
Time shaved off my life-expectancy in the process: six years

Baguette consumed over in six days in Paris: eighty-four inches
Cost savings of eating home-packed baguette in five Paris parks: 60€
Cost savings of eating home-packed baguette in one Paris airport: 60€

Linear distance from check-in to the gate in Charles de Gaulle Airport: thirty metres
Walking distance from check-in to the gate in Charles de Gaulle Airport: two thousand six hundred and fifty-seven metres

Flight attendants that looked like Prince William: one. #happyface
Duration of flight with Wills: twenty eight minutes. #sadface

Time spent in lineups Ottawa-Toronto-Zurich, post 9-11: seven minutes
Time spent in lineups Paris-Montreal-Ottawa, post 9-11: don’t ask
Number of storks in it takes to gain entrance to a cockpit, post 9-11: two

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Les Cigognes arrive in Montreal in style.

Caches found on the last day of the trip: two
Distance between caches: five thousand six hundred and sixty-one kilometres
Reason it was more important to find a cache than to get to the airport: it’s complicated

Number of blog posts I will squeeze out of this trip: TBD

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mY ThAnksgIviNG VaCAtion

Posted by sasha on 13 Oct 2014 in being mom |

On Thanksgiving Day we went for a walk. Just Meena and me.

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Meena took pictures of things that interested her. Like broken trees.

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I took pictures of things that interested me. Like Meena.

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Meena dropped seeds for the chickadees.

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Then other animals came. I took pictures of the animals.

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Meena took pictures of the animals.

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I took pictures of Meena taking pictures of the animals.

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They let us get close.

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Really, really close.

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We stood there for twenty minutes, taking pictures.

Just Meena and me.

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Keep Calm (or, Not Exactly Wordless Wednesday)

Posted by sasha on 27 Aug 2014 in just plain rambling |

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Curtain Call

Posted by sasha on 27 Apr 2014 in being mom |

When ζach asked me what I wanted to do on my birthday, three things came to mind, but I only told him two: go geocaching together, and have a cake with leftovers that could go to the office the next day (instead of sitting on the counter calling my name for the next week).

I didn’t say “take a shower without an audience” – that’s asking the impossible.

To be fair, it’s not that I have no privacy: there is a curtain, which only occasionally gets yanked open mid-lather.  But still, it’s hard to have a nice relaxing shower while discussing pee, issuing reminders to wash hands, and refereeing arguments over whose turn it is on the step stool.

This is what I was pondering as I stepped into the spray, and sure enough, the shampoo had barely begun to foam when someone came skipping into the room and plunked herself on the toilet. With the curtain drawn, I didn’t know who was actually in there with me (although I could narrow it down to two possibilities – ζach rarely skips).

That is, until she started to sing:

Happy birthday to you!

Happy birthday to you!

Happy birthday dear Mommmeeeeee,

Happy birthday to you!

“Aw, thank you sweetie.”

“How old are you Mommy?”

“Are you ready for this?!? Forty. One.”

Meena laughed. “Oh Mommy. Nobody’s forty one.”

I peeked out of the curtain and she grinned at me, then paused –

“Are you dying?”

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This Is Wholesome

Posted by sasha on 5 Apr 2014 in just plain rambling |

You may or may not have watched that Honey Maid video, the one that responds to the wholesome-haters. If not, maybe you’ve just become jaded when it comes to viral videos that tug at the heartstrings.

Me too.

But I decided to watch this one. Not because I’ve seen the original ads – I haven’t. When I heard about them on Ottawa Morning, I vacillated between being perplexed and repulsed by all the negative attention they were garnering. I wasn’t surprised to see the haters out in full force over anything gay-positive; disgusted, of course, but not surprised. But a mixed race couple? Really? What decade is this?

It was a brilliant marketing move: people are flocking to YouTube to watch an ad. If you want to see it on the Huffington Post, you have to watch an ad just to get to the ad. And I have no doubt that Honey Maid’s goal is to sell graham crackers, not save the world. But the fact that they felt they could pull this off gives me hope. Seeing a glut of ugly, hateful messages engulfed in a sea of loving, positive ones gives me even more hope.

Because here’s the thing: there may be “One Million Moms” getting their knickers in a  knot while two dads down the block raise a daughter, but the rest of us don’t see a “gay couple”, we see Denis and Ethan, and all we’re worried about is whether you guys are going to make it to the BBQ on Saturday because the kids have been begging for Ethan’s Donald Duck impression all. week.

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Writing by Not Writing (the one about Fimo and Foam Rollers)

Posted by sasha on 21 Mar 2014 in just plain rambling |

Brains are weird.

Ok, my brain is weird. Read more…

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Do you write?

Posted by sasha on 10 Oct 2013 in just plain rambling |

Do you write?

Fiction? Poetry? Blog posts?

Witty and perceptive Facebook updates?

I like to write, whether it be crafting machine instructions into a piece of working code, or crafting words into a piece of working prose. And like many readers, I’ve always wanted to write the next Narnia series, or Harry Potter, or any other piece of fiction I’ve loved.

But fiction writing has always eluded me. Any attempt I’ve made has gotten mired in details: research, brainstorms, crafting elaborate character sketches. Somehow I never actually get very far with, you know, writing.

Part of the the problem is the process of writing fiction: you really need to start with short stories. I don’t like (most) short stories. I once forced myself to read them for months, to familiarize myself with the genre, and maybe even learn to like it. It didn’t work, and that string of literary one-night-stands is at least partly to blame for my current reading funk.

Another problem is an obsessive perfectionism, or perhaps a better word would be “achievementism”. The knowledge that I’m not going to write a best seller holds me back from doing anything at all. Even though I tell my daughters, again and again, that nobody comes to something new already knowing how to do it: you need to learn; it takes practise.

(Hands-up anyone who is actually capable of taking their own advice.)

So half-finished projects sit in Google docs: research about Lady Jane Grey and Les Filles du Roi. Brainstorms and character sketches about a little girl who can open doors that nobody else can see.

But then, I know I’m not going to be the next Bloggess, and yet here I am. There’s many a half-written blog post that has fallen victim to the same self-esteem issues, but obviously some of it gets to see the light of day.

And you know, it has occurred to me more than once that maybe I should stop worrying all that much about fiction. What’s wrong with blogging? Or non-fiction for that matter? I enjoy it, and it exercises the word-monster in my brain that demands a good romp every once in a while.

Then, the other day, a friend sent me a short story she plans to submit to a writing contest. And somewhere in the middle of writing back to her, a flood of questions inundated my brain: where does the protagonist live? What is her relationship like with her daughter? What is her husband’s name? What do they do for a living? They became real people, and I wanted to know ALL about them. So I pelted my friend with questions, and envied her being the one who gets to answer them.

~~~

I originally wrote this post last week, and it’s been languishing in my drafts folder, waiting for an ending. But damned if I could think of anything. So I took to Facebook, and definitely considered Rémi’s suggestion:

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But instead, I think I may steal the ending from the ending of The Uncommon Reader; or, in effect, give the last words to Her Majesty Queen Elizabeth II (sorry Rémi):

But one mustn’t talk about it, or it will never get written.

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